ebony14 | Tonight's subject ...

... is the future. Today has been a day about contemplating the future. There was a Living Room Games meeting today (for those of you who aren't friends and who have just stumbled across this particular little blog, I make roleplaying games in my spare time), and the news wasn't particularly good. We have to get our SBA loan to be able to produce the game product that will save the company. Without the loan, we have to come at it from a slightly more awkward angle, and the last six months' work towards the loan goes down the tubes. Our august and noble Emperor (read: the company president) has put aside his own job hunt (being unemployed for about 16 months) to process this thing, and he needs to find a job so he can buy food if the loan doesn't come through. If the game product doesn't sell next year, LRG may not be around next November.

Part of me is bummed out by this possibility. I really enjoy being part of the game industry. It gives me a nice sense of fulfillment to contribute to a hobby that I've had since I was 10 (that's 23 years for those who are counting; I got my first D&D stuff for Xmas 1980). If LRG folds, I'll probably do my best to freelance for other companies, but that hasn't panned out in the last year, so I don't know how successful I would be. There is also another part that thinks, "Four years? Not a bad run for a game company. They can't all be TSR/Wizards of the Coast. Ah well; c'est la vie." The general volume of that voice is thankfully quiet. I'd hate to think I'm getting apathetic about a hobby that I've had since I was 10.

For those of you who don't game, this is probably a little confusing. Cope.

Anyways, I also start a new job tomorrow. A new job, in a new industry. I'd be lying if I wasn't excited. If this job works out, I'll be with Verizon for a while. If the interview on Thursday works out better, I'll be writing for Primedia for better money. Either way, I'm taking the next step towards being a professional writer/editor. I'm jazzed about it.

Hopefully, it will live up to my self-induced hype. :)

So, the future is looking brighter. Not necessarly needing shades yet, but we'll see. And if you parsed that reference, welcome to my schizoid thought processes.